Finally! I am finished! I am a Beautiful Butterfly! I have wings!

Heimlich from Bugs Life

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

So, yeah, I'm pretty sure I know what happened

With the wii fit board it comes with little attachments if you use it on carpet. I weighed myself with them on and then took them off and it makes about a 5 lb difference so I think I must have weighed myself a few times with them off. So going from my starting weight I've lost a total of 5 lbs which still feels pretty good.

The bad news is that I haven't exercised for two days. I started a new medicine Monday that is giving me insomnia really bad. Monday night I slept about 4 hours and last night I slept about 6. Hopefully tonight will be better. I will definitely be getting back on the wagon tomorrow. I just feel so much better on the days I've exercised.

When I went to lunch today I got a turkey club without the bacon and mayo on whole wheat so I think I did ok.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I think I know what happened

I don't want to say yet but it means I never lost 10 lbs to begin with, which is good because it also means I didn't gain 7 lbs in one day! LOL Anyway, I will test my theory tomorrow and tell you if it worked.

So I kinda took a break over the weekend. I still worked out Saturday but didn't think much about eating either day. Weighed this morning and had still lost 1.7 so thats good. Last night was my bro's bday so I ate a piece of cake and some icecream. No biggie. It's the everyday eating that concerns me.

So....this week I have a girls lunch out and a midwife friend is taking me to dinner. What are good choices at Olive Garden? I'm going to lunch with friends that have had weight problems in the past and have lost a bunch of weight so I'm planning on asking them to help me make good choices. Both of them are so beautiful and huge inspirations to me!

Someone asked what kind of midwife was I becoming. I'm going to be a CPM and do homebirths.

Friday, January 23, 2009


I've gained 6 lbs back. I'm not quite sure why. It happened on Wednesday and I can't get it to budge. The only thing I can think of is that I skipped lunch on Tuesday. I had an unexpected visitor, we'd been invited to go swimming so I was looking through storage to find swim suits, when I got to the pool I realized that I had never eaten. I ended up eating way more than I would have normally when I got home because I was so hungry. BUT I've maintained the inches lost, actually lost more. I just don't get it.

So.... maybe my body thought I was trying to starve it and wants to hang on to every bit of food that it can.....maybe it's a combination of that and muscle increase.....maybe I lost the first 10 lbs too fast, I've been worried about that....maybe I'm a failure and just can't do anything right.....who knows. It's been really hard to not give up. I just have to keep telling myself that eventually it will go down again and I need to be patient.

I increased my exercise Thursday and today to about an hour and 15 min. I'll repeat that tomorrow and then Monday I want to get up earlier and do an hour and a half. It's not all aerobics. It's part yoga, part strength training, part aerobics. The increase will be just in the aerobics area.

I never did start keeping track of my calories and fat. I might have to start following recipes that have the info listed. It's just very time consuming for me to figure out what each individual ingredient is, add it all together, divide it by the number of servings we might get out of it and then figure out how much I will eat. I just don't have the time. Maybe some day I will figure out what all our favorites are and go from there. Until then I don't know what to do.

Just frustrated.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Feeling normal again

Family is better too except my 16 yo. I think he's going to need a Dr also.

Weekly update- I exercised 6 days last week, two days were light days while I was feeling crappy but at least I did something on those days! Weekend eating was not great but we were 4 hours at a meeting and starved when we got done so we stopped at Wendy's. Trying to balance the eating good and staying within our budget I had a $1 chicken sandwich. I have no idea how much fat and calories they have so..... yeah, there ya go. It's also really hard to curb the snacking while dh is home. Almonds are good for me but too many is not! LOL

The good news is...... I lost 4 lbs. A total of 10 lbs! Awesome. I also measured myself yesterday. I've lost at least an inch off my waist, hips and thighs! I'm very happy! I put a skirt on yesterday that I haven't been able to get buttoned before now. I got it buttoned!

My goal for this week is to write down everything. I need to know for sure how many fat grams and calories I eat mostly because what you don't know CAN hurt you. It would also be nice to have a report for my Dr when I go see him about my cholesterol next Monday.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Feeling better

I finally gave in yesterday and went to the dr. I started getting worried because the infection was spreading to my chest. One of my biggest fears from getting the blood clot in my lung is pneumonia so I decided I'd waited long enough and got an antibiotic. I can already tell a difference this morning. Tomorrow I should be nearly back to normal.

My good news is that yesterday I finally had a good eating day. I got in about 5 servings of whole grains, 3 veggies and 4 fruits plus lots of water. Yay me! As soon as baby girl goes back to sleep (she was up at 6:00. Usually she sleeps until 10) I will finally be able to get in a full workout.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Very sick

I've had a really bad sinus infection since Thursday. When I get sick I quit caring about any resolves and just go with the flow. Thursday I ate very little, Friday my dd made a chocolate cake and I caved and ate two pieces, Saturday once again I ate very little partly because I went to Body Worlds with a friend. We were there almost 5 hours and missed lunch. I filled up with a banana, some nuts and crackers after we got done and then since it was close to dinner time I didn't eat much dinner. I wouldn't have gone since I felt so crappy but my friend had already paid for the tickets and those tickets are expensive. I exercised Friday but missed Thursday and Saturday. That's 4 days of exercising. 5 is what I need to do for the insurance and six is my goal but when you're sick, you're sick.

I'm beginning to feel a bit better so next week should be much better.

Friday, January 9, 2009

Day 5

I'm doing ok. Yesterday was super busy so I ended up with only 4 grams of fat and probably not enough calories (I don't count calories very often so I'm not very good at it, fat and carbs is another story!) Not enough veggies either. No exercise......blah, blah. Big deal. It was an unusual day and eventually will happen. Going out with hubby tonight. That should help. Praying cold doesn't turn into sinus infection like it's threatening to do.

Good news is that I've lost more weight. I'm down about 15 lbs from my highest weight three months ago!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Day 3

Today will be the hardest. Day 3 always is. I'm grateful that I have two different motivators. One is this group (Awesome!), the other is our insurance company has a money challenge going on. I have to go until Feb. 28th without eating sugar. Very, very hard for me. It's really hard for me to go without chocolate. I'm a HUGE addict! But I can do it if I have something to replace it with like hard candies or licorice. I can't even do that with the challenge so I know it's going to be rough but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I have replaced it with crackers, triscuits, and I'm watching the servings and fat grams, so hopefully it won't keep me from losing.

The two biggest things I need to work on is drinking more water and eating more fruits and veggies. Unfortunately I'm a bit limited in what I can eat for several reasons. 1, I'm on blood thinners so it limits what veggies I can eat. It means no dark green leafy veggies, so no spinach or broccoli or dark lettuce etc. Those are my favorite veggies! It means I just don't eat salad because I think iceburg lettuce is pretty useless in the nutrient department. Anyway #2 reason I'm limited is because I won't have any money to grocery shop until next thursday, the 15th. It's really really hard to keep fresh fruits and veggies in this house because my kids eat them really well. We can go through a 10 lb bag of apples in two days! Three lbs of bananas are gone in a day etc. So if you see lots of repetition, thats why! Hopefully at the end of this month I can go off the blood thinners so that will help too.

I also need to work on keeping my calorie and fat levels up. I know it sounds wierd but whenever I diet I tend to eat too little so I can get to the end of a day and have only eaten 4 fat grams and 800 calories. Definitely not enough, especially for a nursing Mom.


Special K/milk
Special K/milk
Two pieces of bread, plain
Breakfast casserole (I know, not the best choice but.....long story)
60 oz water

I'll figure out calories and fat grams later.

Special K/milk
Special K/milk
Two pieces of bread, plain
Two mini oranges
Pancakes/milk (It was a really crappy evening)

64 oz of water

I've done cardio every day and strength training every other day. Total I workout about an hour.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Pics and weigh in

I'm actually getting around to posting pics, only because it was easy today (found the sd cards easily, found the right card readers, found an easy way to get them into a file etc)! LOL So here I am in all my glory. Plus I've lost weight! The Christmas snacking has slacked way off and I've been enjoying the Wii fit so I'm down 3 lbs! Awesome! Course that doesn't count for the BLC but thats ok! I'm thrilled about it. Now just gotta keep going. It would really help if I could get my two littles to fall asleep before midnight, though, so I can exercise at 7 am rather than 8:30 am when everyone else is up and pestering me!
Ok, well, I still don't get the formatting thing but at least they are there. Sorry about the lighting on the two pics. The flash doesn't work on our camera so it's really hard to get a good pic.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Gearing up for Monday

I'm going to get my kids to help me take some pics today so I can post those. I also want to get my measurements up but have to find my measuring tape first. Going to costco to pick up some Special K. Getting my old weight loss notebook out so I can keep track of everything. Lets see, what else.... oh yeah, get everyone participating's link up on my blog. As for a picture of my weight I hope it's ok if I take a pic of Wii fits weight page. I don't trust my scale at all!

I'm excited for this to start on Monday. I'm also LOVING my Wii fit that I got for Xmas! Yes, I've already played around with it and yes, I'm very sore! I also love that my kids are getting more active. We homeschool and with winter it's hard for them to get moving very much.